A Sad Baseball Boy

I’ve had this print of a painting for around twenty years.

I bought it at a garage sale in my neighborhood as a kid, and I’ve brought it with me everywhere I’ve moved since. Despite having it for so long, I’ve never closely looked at it until writing about it now. Doing so revealed two things: The painting is titled Troubled Pals, and the artist is Keith Ward.

Once I realized that, I tried to track down anything else about this painter or painting. The first result was a painting with a similar setup but an adjusted setting.

I found this version less impactful—what’s tough in this situation? Is the implication supposed to be that the boy doesn’t have enough money for the dog food in question? The problem is unclear compared to the baseball version I have.

Plus, I think the dog in mine is cuter.

I was able to find a few basic biographies of Mr. Ward on sites that posted his artwork. In short, he lived 1906–2000, was born in Kansas, but mostly grew up in California. He spent his early career out east after attending art school in New York, but eventually ended up back in California. This blog post from 2007 is the most comprehensive overview of his work and style I could find.

There’s no exciting revelation here, but I’m happy to know a bit more about this print that’s always been near my desk.

The Sunday Paper

Wake up to a slight chill in the air, a quiet morning with leaves strewn across the sidewalks, brown and red and orange and yellow, preparing to crinkle later that afternoon once the morning dew glistening upon them evaporates. Throat is a bit scratchy. Pull up the covers for an extra moment of soft warmth before stretching out, rolling to the side, bare feet on wood floor.

Wipe eyes, grab some water, and go shut the window accidentally left open overnight leading to this moderate discomfort and grogginess. On second thought, it’s going to warm up today. Not too much. Just enough to keep the window cracked and let some warmer air make its way through.

Out the door, to the kitchen, striding gently and quietly so early in the day, trying to avoid the edges of the floor that habitually creak.

Ah, warm relief from the living room rug. Remember back, just a minute ago, when the sheets were pulled up, everything protected against the air that is fondly referred to as “crisp.” The thicker patterns in the rug shield against drafts from the windows—also left open—that spill across the floor.

Walk to the window and peer outside to see new piles of leaves collected on the sidewalk, listen to the birds chirping as the sun breaks through the mild canopy of the neighborhood, and smell the slightly humid air. Eyes cast about, taking it all in, then rest on the small red plastic bag at the base of the porch stairs.

The Sunday paper has arrived with its bold headlines, Associated Press blurbs, comics and box scores, and hyper-localized reporting. It is quaint and fun and supports a good cause; it is the perfect reading material to skim through on a calm, quiet morning.

Impressions From Cross-Country Road Trips

Driving east from Minnesota is a lot of the same, but that sameness is plenty of forested beauty.

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Though my opinions may change after more of these journeys, I found it striking that there seemed to be so little difference as we crossed state lines. Parts of Pennsylvania had more hills as we went over a nominal mountain range, and the speed limits could vary wildly (along with the respective tolls) with each new border, but nothing distinguished Wisconsin, Illinois, Indiana, Pennsylvania, or New York from each other en route to Connecticut. They all shared gentle curves and slopes, tree-lined interstates with hefty medians, a calming aesthetic for a journey from where, to me, feels like a cultural halfway point between the East and West coasts when, in reality, I’m starting nearly two-thirds of the way across the country.

Contrast this with driving from San Francisco to Minneapolis. You leave the Bay Area and hit freeways with speed limits of 70 miles per hour that pour you into a hot valley. You see agriculture, you see nothing, then you hit the Tahoe area and suddenly there are huge hills and trees to give you one final bit of hope and beauty before Nevada.

There’s nothing but impossibly straight rows narrowing to the horizon, interminable and dizzying in their length. Suddenly, you pass into Utah, where salt flats bank the roads and great rocky outcroppings loom in the distance. You work through the interchanges of Salt Lake City and notice the rigid structure of the street exits marking your distance from the temple, then you’re back into wonderfully steep dips and climbs through rocks that hint of the red that is so well-known in the southern part of the state.

Eventually, you reach Wyoming, full of prairie and hills and thick winds and single-laned highways and barred interstates that could be closed without notice due to weather, forcing you to turn back to the town from which you came. If you brave that, you make it to South Dakota which is much of the same but with billboards attempting to bring you to monuments, stores, and corn palaces.

Finally, after a final long stretch, the speed limit eases as you pass into Minnesota and everything appears somehow lusher and calmer, kinder and cooler. There are suddenly lakes and rivers to drive across, small towns dotting the western expanse of the state where farmers and factories share the load of supporting their communities. Eventually, this becomes suburban and then urban as you approach the Twin Cities, but still rooted in a Midwest interstate system.

I’m used to that trip and its distinct views. As I drove east, I was waiting for the change in each state, something to really drive home that I was somewhere else beyond an adjustment in license plates and who was monitoring the toll roads. Instead, I received a range of speed limits from 50 to 65 miles per hour for no apparent reason and a sharp increase in speed traps in western New York.

When I hit Connecticut, everything condensed, speed limits dropped, and I was on local highways where I rarely exceeded 45 miles per hour. Those roads were covered in trees and most of the houses were set back a bit, providing what I assume is a good compromise between accessibility and noise for the homeowners.

It’s amusing driving around here compared to the Midwest. We are ten or twenty minutes away from most large stores we’d care to shop at, but only because there’s a bit of traffic and the speed limits are uniformly at or below 40 miles per hour. It feels like a scale-model version of where I grew up, yet there’s a glaring lack of cycling infrastructure that could fit so perfectly in a place with rigid driving speeds.

I’m excited to drive back and forth across the eastern part of the United States in the next couple of years. It’s a distinct vibe from driving in California, and the change of pace is refreshing.

Erin’s Completed PhD Thesis

My wife, Erin Gilbertson, officially has her PhD in Biological and Medical Informatics from the University of California, San Francisco. You can read her entire thesis, entitled Machine Learning Insights into the 3D Genome: Diversity and Gene Regulation in Human Populations, online here.

I’m incredibly proud of all of her work. It’s been amazing watching her grow, learn, persevere, and succeed in so many aspects. I’m thrilled I’ve been some part of that journey.

Literal Comfort Food

Much like two years ago, Erin and I made it back to the Minnesota State Fair for a few hours. We didn’t eat much. However, walking through those busy streets that look absolutely packed from above but are fairly navigable on the ground was an absolute joy and comfort that helped smooth the transition away from San Francisco.

The spirit of The Great Minnesota Get Together inhabits everyone there. I felt light despite the cookies and corn dogs. I was calm and cool while roasting in the sun. Everything is a little nicer, a bit more joyful and fun at the fair. The familiarity of the fairgrounds, the pleasant conversations at a few booths, and the overall pride for our state all made a huge difference in my mood and outlook after a difficult couple of weeks.

Farewell to San Francisco

Well, I lost my head in San Francisco
Waiting for the fog to roll out
But I found it in a rain cloud
It was smiling down

San Francisco by The Mowglis

Farewell, San Francisco.

I never meant to love you. People asked me, “How do you feel about the city?” I would always respond, “It’s good, plenty to like. But I’ll be ready to go when the time comes.”

That time has come, and you’ve called my bluff.

We grew from strangers to friends during long weekend walks across sleepy city streets, moving from sun to fog, cresting steep hills to reveal breathtaking vistas. You taught me the charm of culture and variety through neighborhoods that merge with each other while remaining wholly distinct, creating a patchwork of people with their own stories and lives, each of them making this city uniquely their home.

As we spent those hours together, ambling without purpose or drive, solely focused on exploring, I found many of your quirks and surprises that you hide away from endeavoring tourists. Each new staircase, sculpture, and park brought me further into your fold, enamoring me and making me realize that you could also be a home for me.

But you are not just the streets and rolling hills. You’re more than artwork on sidewalks and coffee shops, more than your greenspace and restaurants and museums. Like all of us, you’re made of the bits of personality provided by every person here. More than anything, I love San Francisco because I love the people I’ve met, and I now have the great fortune to include them among my friends.

These people, each bringing their own history to bear on this city and our time together, are incredibly special and dear to me. I’m amazed I found such a supportive and inclusive group full of laughs and care and joy. I could say so much, but I will be brief: I am a much better person for having met them.

I promise to visit and spend time once again walking your streets. You’ll no longer be my home, but I will be thrilled to see an old friend I found on accident who impacted my life tremendously and shaped how I approach the world.

Farewell, and thank you.

Packing Up Stinks

My thanks to Jack Prelutsky.

Packing! Oh, Packing!
I hate you, you stink.
I wish I could throw
All this stuff in the drink.
These terrible boxes
Are crowding my floor.
I’m getting so flustered
Each time through the door.

Packing! Oh, Packing!
You’re making me ill.
These thick cubes of cardboard
Are getting their fill.
The crumpling of paper,
The ripping of tape,
All makes me just want to
Run off and escape.

Packing! Oh, Packing!
How can there be more?
Somehow our apartment’s
A general store.
Tchotkes and treasures
And bobbins and toys,
All sorts of clutter
I cannot enjoy.

Packing! Oh, Packing!
What else can I say?
I wish I could ditch and
Get out of this fray.
I’m swimming in boxes,
These prisms abound.
Where once there was happiness
None can be found!

Packing! Oh, Packing!
When can I be done?
Is it time for a break
And a romp in the sun?
“Of course not,” says Packing,
“You’ll never be through.
“I cannot be sated,
“Let items accrue!”

Packing! Oh, Packing!
You mistress of harm.
I’m hurting my back
And have aches in my arms.
A burgeoning tower,
Oppressively brown,
Is building around me
And getting me down.

Packing! Oh, Packing!
I swear I’ll be free.
Sisyphus doesn’t have
Boulders for me.
Soon we’ll be done,
All our life hid away.
Then it’s time to unpack!
What a glorious day.

Morning Pages

I began writing morning pages in June. I first came across the concept via Pagi when they made a post about it being rejected by App Store review. It was a funny way to be introduced to a new creative method, but I didn’t give it additional attention. The idea was tossed into some filing cabinet in my memory.

Morning pages resurfaced in the second episode of Paper Places, a new podcast about writing on Relay FM. Hearing a conversation with actual writers let me more fully connect with the practice, and I decided to give it a shot. Every morning since June 3rd, I’ve taken time in the morning—not first thing, I do my puzzles before anything else—to sit down at a device1My default is my iPad, but my computer is close behind. I have successfully written them on my phone as well. and write about 1000 words, letting whatever pops into my head flow onto the page.

Unlike the official version of the practice, I don’t write these pages by hand. I have my evening journal for that. Instead, I focus on the overall goal of morning pages: dump my morning brain full of random thoughts and anxieties to an external spot so I can start the day feeling refreshed and centered. I often close my eyes while typing, treating it as a form of meditation. I recently read that meditation is more about acknowledging and dismissing unworthy thoughts than clearing one’s mind entirely, and that is where morning pages come in.

I don’t hit 1000 words each day. Some mornings I nearly forget to begin or lack the mood and ambition to do it, but I’ve continued to push on it. They have proven to be among the most valuable fifteen minutes I spend each day, particularly when I wake up feeling off in some intangible way. Morning pages often make those feelings quite tangible and addressable, and I can proceed with the day once I’m done.

It’s not clear whether morning pages, when taken seriously, will work for everyone. Writing is my most natural form of thinking and processing the world, but I can imagine other creative practices getting at a similar goal, if in a more abstract way. I’ve learned that it works for me. I’m happy I’ve tried it and intend to keep the routine.

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    My default is my iPad, but my computer is close behind. I have successfully written them on my phone as well.